hahahahahaha!

i got sooo freakin bored today so i decided to write in my xanger again! haha thats all!

ok this is pointless..

laterz!

um..hi...i made a blog, so chances are i'm never gonna come back to this site....sorry all u xanga lovers!!!

if u want my new site name, its  http://www.absolutez3ro.blogspot.com/ see u there!

god....help me......i need your guidance for the problems i endure right now....

sigh....band today was so weird....i was just standing there waiting for marie to start conducting and suddenly all these thoughts and regrets flooded into my mind....god..it was horrible. I have no idea why this stuff came back to me now....memories about my first love and first breakup, memories of my hospital injury in 8th grade, memories about my loves and cares right now....

sigh*...too many things have been happening to me these days. I dunno wat it is, but im suddenly feeling um...i dunno, i guess everything bad thats ever happened to me is suddenly coming back to me i guess. i have too much free time...just wanna fall to my knees and scream and let out everything thats been annoying me in the slightest.

sigh*i don't noe wat it is. mebbe the injury i had in eigth grade (anyone who didn't go to parx, u can just ask me about it) landed me in hospital for i dunno...15 days? i thought that was bad. I'm trying to hide it from everyone, and i think it's working..guess my fake smiles work.. :)...

since im trying to hide it, i guess i won't talk about it anymore on this xanga. Too depressing..better to keep it inside, lol.

um...yea..if u finished reading this, u probably have either a totally confused look on your face now or a totally sad look...i'm really..... sorry, haha.

also, don't think im gonna do anything stupid lyk commit suicide or something retarded lyk that...nothing is worth so much as to take my own life...

lol...ill just be happy and try to put all my cares in the back of my mind..mebbe burying them will take them away...

i was sent down to the earth to live my own life..and thats wat i plan to do...

Pat-cha

 yep...today was pretty kool...no tests and wen we discussed this one book in english, i actually had read the chapter so i knew wat was goin on! yay! hahaha.

anyways, um..yea..my day...got up at wat...6:10? I was lyk "o crap! I'm gonna be late for school!" but really my mom had turned the clock lyk 30 minutes fast to wake me up earlier (:]) god that was mean...but it was funny i suppose.

Anyways, i was all grumpy at my mom cause she woke me up lyk that, but after my shower i felt a little better, cause i knew that there was no chance that i would be late now. Went to breakfast table and my mom hadn't gotten outta bed yet! so...being the total resourceful guy i am, i whipped myself up some cereal and apples and milk. Halfway thru my breakfast my mom came running in. she was going on about how she had forgotten to wake up to make me breakfast. Then she saw me with my food and got kinda annoyed. guess she didn't lyk panicking for nothing...i dunno.

got to school REALLY early, and it was freezing so i was jumping up and down trying to warm myself for around 10 minutes...Anyways, fop was totally boring today. We talked about "computer ethics" something about copyright laws and stuff...i was half asleep while Mr. goodman was talking so i forgot most of what he said.

um...rest of day went ok except for bio..god...bio...we took a slide test on mitosis and o man......horrible......o well, only 17 points haha!

um...wat else....wat else....in band today after skool, i was 4 minutes late to the field and i had to run freakin 4 laps!!! THATS A FREAKIN MILE!!! AND FOR 4 MINUTES LATE!!! anyways, because of that i felt lyk crap for the whole practice and i didn't even play right either..god...guess it is kinda my fault for being late thou...

pc workshop this sunday! hell yea, looking so forward to it! um...yea..personal life...here it goes...

i dunno, im confused, i feel funny... don't think she lyks me..so...yea...she talks about the guy she lyks (but doesn't say his name) and none of the stuff she says relates to me at all..except...one time...i guess...There's also this other girl who i totally do not want to lyk..but she lyks me i think...eeeww....o well..thats my personal life...
and oh yea...if u can download stuff, download "it's my turn to fly" by the used. totally kool song

laterz, Pat-cha

by the way, how do u get a chatterbox?

*sigh* i guess i don't really feel lyk writing anything today.

but..i found this poem in a calvin and hobbes book and i think its really kool. Its about christmas eve and i noe its a little early but hey...ill type it again when christmas time comes..and my freakin space bar is busted

                    Christmas Eve                       

On window panes, the icy frost
Leaves feathered patterns, crissed and crossed,
But in our house the Christmas tree,
Is decorated festively
With tiny dots of colored light
That cozy up this winter's night.

Christmas songs, familiar, slow,
Play softly on the radio.
Pops and hisses from the fire
Whistle with the bells and choir.

My tiger is now fast asleep
On his back and dreaming deep.
When the fire makes him hot,
He turns to warm whatever's not.
Propped against him on the rug,
I give my friend a gentle hug.

Tomorrow's what I'm waiting for,
But I can wait a little more...

:]